Welcome to Usagi's Blog Studio! It's a blog about me, Usagi. This is the main portion of the site, the blog. (Can I say the word "blog" any more times or what? XD)
This site has been formed around many things, but hopefully things'll be at a final stage ^^;
Online since 2004~ So have fun and remember not to STEAL!!
♥Usagi
♥Usagi
♥4/14/08
♥Well I suppose I've taken enough downtime to chill out. And I've finally regained my inspiration to do anything again. But, bad news is my host has
absolutely SUCKED the past 2 months. So I'm going to have to move the site ): Probably to my sponsor, K-chan. That means I'll have to give up on my hostees
as well. Sorry guys, but I'm not gonna dish out $10 a month for something that's turned so unreliable ;-;
And I'm also going to work to make the site a little more simple. I'll be getting rid of my 2005 blog because I was a weirdo kid and I don't want to remember those days.
Lots of interactive stuff I don't mess with either is gonna go too. They were fun when I had the time, but I don't anymore. Maybe they'll be back for the summer because
tons of people are online then. Unfortunately, for now, it's gonna be a no.
That's really it. Now to start on the new layout.
♥Usagi
♥2/10/08
♥I haven't dropped by to say hi to most of y'guys ): I'm sorry, there's just......well...I think after all of these years I'm finally breaking down.
I haven't done anything but come home, study, sleep and go hysteric. There's just so much going on in my family and yet again there's no room for me, but I can't
bottle it all in anymore...I haven't watched Transformers, listened to music, etc. so don't think I've been screwing around. I don't know how to communicate either
about all of this. Last monday I had a huge mental breakdown, and cried silently in all of my classes, then I just exploded in 6th period, especially in front
of the guy I like. I haven't been in such sad shape since the 8th grade, and I don't know how to bear through this all again. I can't open up about it, so
far I've confided in 2 people about it, and I absolutely CAN'T talk to my family. Most of it is their fault, and there's just no room for me in all of this. I still
can't believe I broke down like that, it was so humiliating but I just couldn't STOP. I haven't been eating well either the past few weeks and I've grown pale and
my bones are beginning to protrude.
I also want to tell the guy I like how I feel, but he has a girlfriend. We've been having these moments now since my breakdown, where I just stare into his eyes.
I'm scared that I've been pushing him away, I want to at least stay close to him. At school we're doing this totally gay thing where we send these little "candy grams"
I'm not well-versed with words when it comes to expressing how I feel in words, so I drew this picture yesterday. A free-spirited girl about to share a kiss with
her guy. I want to sneak it to him through that gay little candy gram. The title of the drawing is "Just give me one (kiss)" I'm severely disappointed though. It's
normal to have these feelings but I gotta keep it in, I don't want to commit any sins here.
I might change the site up, and make it a little more personal. I haven't started on a new layout yet either, and I had this wonderful idea for a valentines/couples
layout but I just haven't thought of it.
It might be awhile before I find the strength to update again. I haven't been very good to my buddies online or to this site, but I think my shaky bridge has finally snapped.
I thought I'd pull through until I was 18 but I just can't.
And you know what? Why are some people just so damn good at graphic design? No really, I see tons of people recently open and create graphics I wouldn't
know how to make even with photoshop (I use paint shop pro). I've been in the design world for nearly 4 years, and I can't amount to such talent. *sigh*
♥Usagi
♥1/21/08
♥So, I finished the G1 series last sunday, finished Beast Wars yesterday, and am making my way slowly through Beast Machines. I don't want to get
too addicted to the point that
I'll neglect my sewing like G1 D: My last day of exams is tomorrow, so I'll seize the opportunity of my break to sew. I'm nervous that I'll lose motivation or screw
up because I'm trying to upgrade my skills. It's not hard or anything, but I'm scared I might mess my mom's precious machine up or that I'll be clueless when I look
at the patterns for Willy Wonka. I'm paranoid, I know, I can do this but I can't help but feel that I might screw up. So I'll be building my confidence this weekend by working/finishing
my pajamas (I have to iron the pants real well though, I sewed kinda fast so it's a bit wrinkled, so I'll sew a little slower from now on because my paranoia is making me feel that I boo-booed)
and starting on my dress for Misuzu. I'm also going to force my mom to buy me a new TVR as my allowance and as a reward for my exam grades.
Family life has been uber crap, but I've been coping pretty well. I haven't talked about it either, and I don't intend to because of various reasons. Yes *pulls of a PGSM act* various reasons.
I think I've found my inspiration to draw again. I'll doodle on my worksheets privately but I wanted to get back to developing the characters/plot for this one story I've been writing for years. And not to mention
I'm bringing out my fashion/costume designs out 8D I just gotta organize my thoughts here because a BAJILLION thoughts are running through my head. I'll be like "New outfit design idea!" then in 2 seconds "Character profile idea!" and another few seconds "Original costume idea!"
Yeah, as you can see, it gets pretty confusing, too confusing that I'll sit with paper in front of me, pencil in hand and be like "Crap. I can't channel my idea exactly......how did it go again?" I get ideas impulsively that I'll forget about my latest one in detail.
I should probably get different sketchbooks and properly organize them ^^;
High school's becoming a total drag, the freshman are boring, the classes are lame, the school's falling apart, and I'm fantasizing too much. Hopefully when I leave the Junior high (1 more semester left!) and go to the senior
high, there'll be much more waiting for me there. It's a bit creepy there, but it'll do.
♥Usagi
♥1/5/08
♥It's 1:11 AM, so it's time for RESOLUTIONS! Though I really should watch more of Transformers and try to finish G1 while I go to sleep. I'm really hating the 3rd season, no Optimus (Which means no more Peter Cullen D:),
Daniel never shuts up and is incredibly bratty, and Spike's pretty arrogant. Blur is so fast paced when he speaks, it's obnoxious. And that kid Autubot that talks in riddles, he's so god dang confusing! X_X There's no Jazz too! Ironhide died off in the movie, a bit
sad (Peter Cullen voiced him) so now he can't make fun of us Texans with his accent now xD But I do like the part 2 of that season xD Grimmlock's hilarious though, he's so full of personality *cough cough* unlike
RODIMUS PRIME. He was better as Hot Rod really, and UGH I can't stand looking at him when he appears, he practically killed Optimus in that one episode by giving him back the Matrix. AAAAAGHHHHHHHHHH!!! /rant
Anyway, my resolutions for this year:
-Update the sitely parts of the blog
-Put up my cosplay portion of the site
-Work on sewing skills
-Keep on exercising so that I don't lose my immunity again X_x;
-Complete Midna by AF 08!
-Get a digital camera
Yeah, that's pretty much it. Life's been hectic lately with the family so I'm probably going to enjoy going back to school and being preoccupied with Theatre again. 2007 went by fast, which I'm glad for. My second semester
was horrendous, my summer was awful, and my 1st semester of being a sophomore was incredibly unfufilling because of watching freshman. They're soooo sceneish, and they remind me of those middle school days which I'd rather forget, thanks.
I cleaned out my old drawers and put sentimentals in a box to be put into a storage, so I'm pretty satisfied right now. I also helped my sister again today moving her back in. It was fun while it lasted =3 Tomorrow I'm going shopping for
Translucent powder and 2 wig heads, go see Sweeney Todd and do a fitting of my pajama top. I'll baste everything later, probably during exam week as I'll have spare hours before I go exercise with my dad (I get early release at 1:00 then).
So this year I'll be a junior. It won't be as stressful as last year, but it won't be easy with all these advanced courses I'll take. I really can't stand my english class, I'm god awful at those AP essays, who cares about analyzing literature? I don't.
I'm disappointed I haven't nailed them but my grades are decent. My grades are quite a few points lower than the last year, but I chose to be this busy. My strongest subject is still mathematics (I aced algebra last year), but URGH I'm so frustrated with Geometry because they changed
our teaching style. Instead of being lectured and taking notes, we must take notes from the book with 0 help and then do our homework. I'm getting tired, I'll finish this rant later =_=
♥Usagi
♥12/28/07
♥I've really lost my inspiration this entire year to update. I have a lot to work on for this site, and I want to do it but....I just don't feel like it. At all.
I also feel bad for not talking to my buddies for so long too. One reason is that I'm managing forums for a cosplay organization. It keeps me real busy to program everything
behind the scenes. Ima nerd, what can I say? Maybe I'll have to make a new year's resolution to keep the site up and going. I need to update my gifts page too, I have tons that have piled up XD
Oh, and here's a Christmas gift for ya'll. I wasn't really in the spirit this year though....Click
HERE for it. Thanks to my buddies that
gave me gifts too.
UIL absolutely sucked. Our judge was a voice actor for funimation, that's enough for me to hate him :p And he was...unprofessional. He said Lauren played Ms. Bessom slutty, but in a good way.
WHO THE HELL SAYS THAT?! And he said too that he liked watching our men. Creepy much? XD But it was fun to hang out with Ariana, Kalub, Lizzie, Travis, and the speech team doofs. I saw Skipper there too,
which was a little frightening but none the less refreshing (: At least I don't have to be at school until 6:30-7:00
I've been addicted to the old school Transformers. I'm on season 2! XD It's so much fun. I <3333 Starscream, Jazz & Rumble. I don't like Ironhide, Soundwave and Frenzy so much though. Oh well. And....best of all....
COREY BURTON IS A VOICE ACTOR OF THE SHOW OMGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dude, y'know what? My school's so blagh. 1 more semester left before I go to the senior high, but dude...seriously...people are so immature. I was walking down the stairs when I was going home....no wait I was going to 5th period! Okay, so this guy shoved past
me and shouted SUPER LOUD to his friend "TOM JUST ADMITTED TO ME THAT HE HAS CRABS" Yeah, big WTF moment. For those of you not in the know, crabs is a slang term for pubic lice, a treatable STD. I find it funny that people randomly shout such a humiliating subject,
especially in such a big crowd. It'd be even more funny if this happened:
And with that I conclude today's blogging. Oh, just for the record, I didn't make the avatar, I no have Photoshop (Will soon though!)
[EDIT]I've been tagged by Tsu-chan![/EDIT]
RULES:
1. Link to your tagger and post these rules.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself: some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post and list their names and link to them.
4. Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
RANDOM FACTS:
1. I love oldies, well, that's a given XP
2. I can't stand horrendously fake people
3. I wish I had my own Transformer (Autobot) Preferably Jazz, Optimus or Wheeljack. A Decepticon would unfortunately kill me on sight X_x;
4. I'm afraid of showing my art to people due to past experiences, but I've showed Mel and only Mel my current works
5. I'm slipping away from all the shallow people I know in my life
6. I love macabre things, blood and gore. Tim Burton fan much for Usagi?? XD
7. I think Spike Whitwicky looks like Pat Benatar @_@
I shall tag:
I dunno D: Alot of my buddies have already been tagged! So....if you read this and wanna join in on it, go right ahead! You are officially tagged by me! Usagi pokes you XP
♥Usagi
♥11/30/07
♥Wow, I haven't updated in 20 days. Life's been hectic, and that history project *points to post below* turned out to be the project from hell. My WH teacher
is the teacher from hell too :\ What a combo xD I won't touch up on it though, maybe another time. Trust me, though I've neglected the site, I have NOT
been partying or anything. In fact, I was sick during my thanksgiving break, and this week = overload. I had 3 tests today and a quiz, and I studied so intensely yesterday
that I skipped lunch to study in the library and get my review done (Which wasn't for a grade, and that got me upset)
Personal issues have increased too. My mother....well, I'll just say what am I gonna do to keep her health in check? It's been hard to slap a smile on my face this week, really
hard, but I'm an actress and it's what I do. I'll talk to Mel about it, since she can handle my true self :\ And I just found out what caused me to have the oversleeping (Where I'd sleep
for 14 hours at a time), my lack of energy, hunger, etc. for all these years. I can see it's grown immensely worse from when I was a childhood. But, I'm not going to get any help about it
until I'm 18 since my family's trying hard enough to keep my mother alive. I must not be selfish :)
Okay, update-wise, I'm just about done with the awards, they should be up by the end of the weekend, then I'll begin coding my new tables layout that I recently finished as well. I have to do another
History project too, and I have a christmas party to attend tomorrow too......I'll do my best to keep everything up, because next week I have rehearsals till 6:30, then 7:30, then show day then competition, and UIL
competition takes up the ENTIRE DAY. >_< Wish me luck!
♥Usagi
♥11/10/07
♥ I really should be working on my WH project, but I'm not. In fact, this morning, my mother and I went shopping. I went to JoAnns, Hobby Lobby, etc.
I'll be back at joanns for veterans day 'cause of the sales and we're making Haruhi outfits ;) But I went to get supplies for arm warmers & leg warmers. I bought an eyelet plier (Which I might not need, depending
if I get a white pencil and try it more), 30+ eyelets, 2 rolls of pink & hot pink ribbon, pin cushion, bells, 4 yards of black linen, white long sleeved shirt, and novelty cotton fabric. I'll make a few for myself, then begin making
them for christmas presents. I'll give a pair to Cassie, Mel, Ali & Ariana. I'd make one for Lain, but she's so awesome at sewing and I'm making these like her Bou ones anyway ^^;
My mom really was having fun with me. She was a very crafty person when I was a kid. She sewed, did custom dye shirts, painted, etc. It really brought back good memories for her.
Okay, so today I found out Hobby Lobby hires at 15! I could really use the discounts too :3 I'll apply during the summer, and what's cool is that HL has no shopping cart docks outside, so I don't have
to shove them around in the Texas heat! *dances* I'll still be deliberating about it though. Joanns' veterans day sale will be awesome. 50% off thread spools, which is good for me because I use coats
& clark! Simplicity patterns will be 1.99, Halloween patterns will be on sale, craft foam discount, etc. I just hope to find good bias tape!
Dude, check out what I made! Credits go to 311-chan for the tutorial! I lost the one she gave me ;-; I'll be making more~
I've been making new batches for the awards, because my old compy broke down when I was remaking them. They'll be up by tomorrow probably, since I really have to work on my project. I'm starting
my Christmas layout which will be a tables layout. I ♥ tables, I'm so glad I finally figured out how to use them~ I'm also gunna go with the flow and start doing plugs:
Plugs:
311 has been listed as my bud, but I'll publicize it now! I'm so happy I have a new one! (:
Kana-chan just reopened her site. Go see!
♥Usagi
♥11/4/07
♥ I'm back! Yayas! A pink layout is a firstie for me. I know, I know, wtf was I thinking ^_^; I think I'll try and be a little more cutesy-wutesy
instead of gloomy. How was everyone's halloween? Mine = epic. My first trick or treater was a ninja turtle! He had the TMNT katana too! :D Then
a little girl sneezed on me as her "thank you" xD I have to find my jester hat though for my CCS outfit, there's a photoshoot come the 17th x3
You'll notice some things vanished on the menu. I took down the SOTM, contests, fanfics, etc. because those areas didn't get much traffic. BUT, they will be
replaced with better things, so don't fret! I also added some cool features *cough buddies cough* and I'll be working on the awards today, and update
my cosplay webbie. I have a lot of projects to do today, so I'll just try and do minor things for now.
Lots of <3
♥Usagi
♥11/3/07
♥I'm so tired. I've been updating a lot of things around here. I'll post again later in the morning, okay? ^_^ In the meantime, enjoy the layout!
Female. 15. Pale. Muslim. Middle Eastern. Asian. American. Texas. Brunette. Brown-eyed. Petite.
Straight. Artistic. Actress. Cosplayer. Studious. Lazy. Procrastinator. Talkative. Listener. Mysterious. THE NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS
Super CCS Fan. Loves color blue.
Worth $3,341,190
